Sunday, May 11, 2008

Tears at Church

Today was a great day for us - technically. Dave was ordained a High Priest and called to serve as a councilor in the Bishopric. I have to admit though, I feel pretty selfish. Dave spends so much of his time studying that I tend to become quite possessive of what limited time we do have together - that hour and 15 minutes in Church is a rare commodity. Sitting there next to him this morning and sustaining him was a wonderful moment, but then they invited him to take his place on the stand...and suddenly my happy little bubble popped. No more Dave sitting next to me, no more hand to hold, no more ear to whisper into or lap to scribble notes back and forth between.... As I watched his receding back, my chin started to tremble and his image blurred. Suddenly it hit me, I'm a Sacrament meeting widow.
All morning,if someone asked how I felt about his new calling, my eyes would well-up with tears all over again. I keep reminding myself that thousands of women endure this selective widowism most of their married lives. What about the wives of General authorities? I don't even have children to tend! Still, the morning's excitement on which Dave sailed left a little emotional wife in the wake.

8 comments:

Daines said...

I'm so sorry about your widowhood! How cool that he's in the bishopric now! Don't forget how much fun making faces can be...

Erin said...

Don't feel bad about feeling a little bad, Abby. I am much worse. I sighed a BIG sigh of relief when I knew it was you and not me.

*Wicked*

Natalie Jane said...

This is why I make subtle remarks to the bishop about how much Shane is out of town :)

Emily Taylor said...

That is why Greg and I and try so hard to not appear "too righteous" we don't want him to be taken away yet.

But really, I am sorry. I really don't know how other women do it. Sunday has become my favorite day because Greg and I drive to church, sit together for a solid hour, seperate for a but, but then drive home together. It has become our new "date" time. I don't know what I would do if it was taken away.

I suppose that is why blessings are promised. Makes up for it a bit.

Diana said...

Like you, I have always cherished sacrament meeting time sitting next to Mark because there are no other responsibilities or distractions. Seriously, those Sunday moments have been some of my favorite moments. Due to Mark's rotation schedule, I knew exactly which Sunday would be our last before having our baby. And when I realized that sacrament meeting would never be the same again due to having another little individual to focus on, I shed some tears myself.

I completely understand your emotions. I wish I could have been there to give you a hug. Congratulations on the calling nevertheless.

Harris Family said...

Abby, you can always put your great artistic talents to work by creating signs/billboards to communicate your affection throughout the meeting...such as "My husband is HOT," "Dave for President," and "If you like this church dress you should see me holding a flowery scripture case," and so forth. You could hold them up at regular intervals while the meeting progresses. This works whether you are second row center, or in the back. Best of luck!

Erin said...

Cute pic!

TJ said...

Hey guys! I never know what to say when someone gets an important calling so I'll stick with congrats :) I know you'll be great Dave (while I do sympathize with Abby). Amber, Kate and I miss you guys!